Just Me: The Kratik Malhotra Blog

It was 9Th grade when you first put your hand on that bud,
burning tobacco like you had heard.
First experience due to utter frustration,
then,second due to occasion.
Tobacco then,was to evade,
Weed then was to deluge.
Frequent and fearless,what you once hated,made it a habit,
From a one off,to occasional,to social,to regular,
I watched you lose you tarnish,you had every colour.
When once you laid,thinking how you used to be,
cried like insane and shrugged it off by another bud.
your perants found out but covered you with their love,
Delusion ed they were,gutted they felt.
you then decided to quit it all,
Day on,bullshit you said and hash was down your throat.
It all became a habit for you,
Demented and like an idiot,thinking powerful you laid,inept you were.
your perants not showing but couldn't shed tears,
Like a nut you said,depleted ones care.
Gutted they were and gutted who knew,
only years of God's gift left to be lived.
As I see you now lying in a coffin,
realizing how gutted you once used to be.
swayed like none other,
with a racid smell,feeling proud you walked down the road's end.
Seeing tears in your perants eyes,
Thinking how gutted they would be,
As I see you lie in a coffin,
I stand and think of us.
Where you were and how you had been,
time back had you realized,would you be here.
Gutted I stand,friend.

Always been a dreamer,
Spiritless I walked.
Wrapped in a shell like a creature,
In a misconception I lived,holding on to that very chord.
A belief that died one day,
moving on I knew,but soul crushed I was,I thought,
Alone I got down to lay,within emotions I was caught.
An attitude so vigilant,
It was all in your lane.
I a knife with edge so blunt,
All I was left was in vain.
you left but I still walked,
Feeling captivated,left me in tears.
I said I quit,with emotions rocked,
waiting till that cloud clears.
That's when I got my Guruji,
Introduced to me by my Guru.
His blessing and his connection with me,
A metronome of the divine with an amazing milieu.
He in my life like an angel,
I started to sing in his orchestra.
With a jubinated belief in him to ring his grace bell,
It seemed like the start of a new era.
Since then when I felt down,
He showed me the way.
Told me there's nothing to frown,
Giving my 100% to see that light ray.
How easily he taught me forgetting to rancour,
carving an attitude so valorous.
He showed me the path and made me discover,
a world of peace over evil,was to see,forgetting the previous.
A move from the past to the present,
the transition of thoughts after days so tumultuous.
A smile so constant after days of descend,
I realized how people had kicked me around with their opinions.
With a feeling of gratitude,
he made me stand right next to the stars.
Changed me to see this world in a way too different,
said accept situations the way the are.
All I did was believed in the master,
and left it all in the past.
With his teaching I learnt how opposite values are complementary,
how deterred I was,maybe I thought I had lost.
He came like a bird in my life,
dropping seeds of beatitude,whispered to be up to the stake.
From the clogne of beauty and an extra strive,
I learnt a reason is too week behined a mistake.
I walked on a road living under a shadow,
trapped in the prison of past.
He called me to give me a momento,
His teachings would always last.
That's my Guruji,
Introduced to me by my Guru.




Dedicated to Sri Sri Ravishankar,my Guruji.
Thanks a lot,Yes!+,Pune,AOL rocks!
A special thanks to Manish Bhaiya and Srividya didi.

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I am still hurting from a love I lost,
she was priceless and never wanted to lose her at any cost.
It had almost been an year,
and what had just come throush was my worst fear.
I said I have to wait,
and not be desperate.
But I have no idea from where on earth did this situation arise,
like a pheonix from the ashes,am I a fool to despise?
Time has never had answers for words left unsaid,
tears out of agony and depression,,leaves no more for them to shed.
I blame god to a certain extent,
He made to talk to her after seven years only for me to undergo a bend.
There are some who lie,
only to end up kissing their honey goodbye.
But I never even had to leave behind,a hurricane of some cruel lies.
Love is friendship on fire,
and she my lone desire.
When you have an entwinting heart,
and you have travelled in one of those love carts
even though deep inside u know ur a stringless bow,
but ur always prepared to take whats high and whats low.
the thought of moving away always bullied me,
i knew somewhere inside but I still did believe.
But as bulliness responds to strength,
I'd be prepared to be much stronger,
and try to move on even though I love her some much,
maybe I wasn't the most elite,
without her,I'm just incomplete.

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Seems as if I have lost hope,
But I'm not going into dope
I know I was never the best chap,
But a time there once was,That people for me would cheer and clap!
I know I have made mistakes one after the other,
from academic feild to music,life has been hard to steer.
I know my acts are ones I have to groom,
But how?, I have been wondering from midnight to noon.
I know world on me does laugh,
But just wanna say,DON'T WRITE ME OFF
There wasn't only one promise that I broke,
But I don't know infront of this world how do I cope?
Number of things I do lack,
Tell me how,with a bang can I be back.
I am walking on a road and noone to hear
It's as though this world has shut it's eyes and kickd me on the rear.
I know many might think I to them am not a boon,
But just wanna say it's way too soon.
I am young and there's a lot left to cough up,
So please don't write me off!

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A letter to God:
I was five when I first thaught of writing to you,
just to thank you for what you had given me.
But now is the time and you've always been true,
to have a cloud of grace over me and my family.
Even when the times have not been right,
You have given me enough power to face my worst sorrow,
and incase I am not able to fight,
sent me an angel for the agony to swallow.
It so seems that you controlled my life,
and made it go on in a way that was perfect and it's You whom I must greet.
You made me eat it's every slice,as though it was bitter at first but later sweet.
Given me friends via whoom You taught me One lesson after the other
and told me you must watch out otherwise u might have to surrender.
Surrounded me with people who would love,
and made me believe that they are the ones who are all above.
I again join my hand before You to pray,
To always have Your hand above me so that this life would go on the merry way.
I wish I could personally come and say thank You to You for all You have done for me,
but as for now I hope this letter reaches You.
Wish You in my life would forever be,
Just want to thank You so..

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Valentine's day,the day of love,
always thaught,this would be a day to look to the stars above,
and say,
I am with my love and the times all gay.
This day,this time again wasn't all that rare,
Still single,feels pathetic,I swear.
I love a girl,But her Love towards me is drowning in a deep well,
All the secrets and no one to tell.
When I use to see her face,I always wishd one day we would be
lost in each other's embrace,my darling and me.
I don't mind being patient and standing still to wait,
But will tell her how much I love her befor it's too late.
I've walkd long on this luv lane,but prefer to wait,
as I've seen desperation explode into flames .
I once loved her and still do,
She to me is like an arrow if I am a bow.
I'll never give up as I'm a fighter,
would try to make things brighter.
Her thaught still mesmerizes me,
can't get her out of my head,
I'll always stand by the things I've said.

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I thaught I'd never be able to live,When my brain told me I had lost in love.But I decided to carry on,When my heart told me..U DON'T LOVE TO WIN SOMEONE"S HEART,But you win HER heart through LUV.


ummmm.....Don't ask me why I am writing this as I mite be the last person to answer your question
Someone,sometime,somewhere told me Push the throttle completely and love the person u love to the fullest and then leave everything to the one having the most power,the one who has created us and wait to see what he has in store.
Well,why do people fall in love,why do people feel that without a person in your life,your life is incomplete,perhaps some questions that might always reman unanswered.......
OKay tell me have you loved anyone,if not,ur lying,If yes,why?
Is it because,u wanted that person close to u always,or is it that u care for a person or is it that u feel she touches your heart and soul or IS IT THAT YOU FALL IN LOVE FOR NO REASON(you dont know why,you dont know for what,all you know is your love is eternal and will last forever).
You don't fall in love to win someone's heart but you fall in love because you just love that person,I know many people might not agree with me but what if she does not love you,would you stop loving her,If you will,then that's not love.
But if not,and your heart says that a day in your life will come that your heart will say something to her's and you are ready to love her her till your last breadth and try to win her heart till your last gasp, then,you are in love buddy!
When I say "to love is not to win a heart",that entirely means you don't love a girl because you want to win her heart and want her to be yours but you just love her for a reason I am absolutely alien to,
You when fall in love dont give a damn about the circomstances and thr concequences because what you have with you is a feeling for someone and when that feeling is very strong,stronger than anything you have ever come across you know you are in love and even if she says no you dont take a step back as you love her and your love would last till you have lived your very last mili second.
Love teaches u to take pain,agony,joy,depression,sorrowness,shock(take it as a positive modal auxilry) in your stride and move on to get the girl of your dreams.
Even I am one of you who has loved some one at some time but am someone who thinks to be lost and far away from where I wanna be(in her heart),so,those who have got the girl of your dreams by your side,good for you but those who haven't would tell you to carry on and wait as love also has patience or rather it requires patience and do believe that if your love has strength even so for the creater to be proud of you ,a day will come that you would be with the one you love.